so i work with a creative writing program for 3rd to 6th graders, and 7th-12th graders. this poem was written by one of the brightest young men i know, Justin, on his 15th birthday five days ago.
So often I think about what my life will become.
Will I be a victim to the same poisons that made a home on the lips
And then assaulted the minds of my brothers?
I wonder, how will I survive?
No guiding light,
No taller, stronger version of myself to teach me wrong from right.
No Father.
I had a daddy.
I knew him once upon a brokenhearted little 4 year-old's Christmas.
The night I waited and waited until daylight glistened in the tears draining my eyes.
Tears that took my hope with them,
Replaced the innocent with angry thoughts of
FUCK that nigga.
Pain laced with venom is never a good combination.
And now I wonder, what will become of me?
Who's gonna tell me to watch out for hoes,
To wrap it up when both heads are hard
and I don't listen?
Who will have my back when I feel like falling?
Who will slap the back of my head
When I'm disrespectful to my mama?
I had a daddy.
No Father to catch the insecurities
Dripping from the ice on my neck.
To tell me that shit was wack.
That I didn't have to be eleven selling crack.
I had a daddy.
I wonder, what will become of me.
Will I be the man that runs
When the mouths to feed outnumber the dead presidents in my wallet?
Fear laced with cowardice has never resulted in anything meriting praise...
I had a daddy.
No one ever told me it's okay to feel sad.
Forever bucking up
Perpetually branded the Angry Black Man
...And I ain't even a man yet.
Don't know if I'll ever be.
Will life allow me to surpass the deadbead embedded in me?
No one ever encouraged me to do my homework
Instead of my girl
How do you become a man without ever knowing what one is?
I travel through life blind, hands desperately outstretched
Feeling my way along these gritty walls
Uncertainty guides me.
Cause I never had a Father.
Don't really know what one is.
But I had a daddy, once.
hope all is fab and flyy my peoples.
*smiles*
Warren Jae f. Andre 3000- Rather See Her Smiling
29 minutes ago
20 comments:
That was painfully beautiful if that makes sense. its sad to me cause i had both parents and seeing a young man have to go through that pain of missing his dad just breaks my heart.
thanks for sharing muze! :-)
That boy is gifted with the pen. I'm glad you're working with him, babe. That was powerful.
Outstanding...
He is gifted. The way he expressed those feelings...that pain...leaves me speechless. Powerful indeed.
1/3... heyyyyyyy!!!! :) *ahem* yeah it did make me sad the first time i read it, yet i stay in awe of his barely 15 yr old mind.
inny... hey girlie! yes, he is. loves my babies. :)
richard... hey love. thanks.
delacool... heyhey. yeah the subject is sad, but he is amazing.
I haven't been ova here in a minute. Maybe it's b/c we talk all the time on twitter. LoL
Nevathaless, that was deep. I'm very impressed with this. The kid has talent. You can feel the pain in every sentence. He is wise far beyond his years
that gave me cold chills - at 15 so much pain and pent up anger - I pray he doesnt take that into his adulthood
Very moving poem. Very deep and as a mom I am moved to tears that such fate falls upon our children. The kid is truly going to go places and I hope he continues to be the man he knows he can be regardless of the bad example his father is showing him.
I had to sit back in my chair after reading this. You can feel the pain and the confusion the kid has and fear of his future. Just amazing.
Very inspired by this.
Having felt fatherless at a point in my life, before acceptance of circumstances, I have bore witness to the exact ponderings.
Justin in a TALENT. Inspiring me to keep writing.
How fortunate are we to have words.
How fortunate are we to be Motherful.
Oh wow. That was incredibly moving.
And incredibly painful.
What a remarkable young man.
reading this brought tears to my eyes. this subject is very touchy for me cause i can relate. on another note im glad he got to release his emotions with the pen and paper. thanks so much for sharing.
BW
wow, I thought that was beautiful. My words of wisdom for would be this; God will give you what you need and nothing you can't handle will be given to you. Therefore, ask your father God and ye shall receive. Thanks for sharing that Muse... I miss you around here.; )
Incredible words.
I loved it from the very beginning to end.
He is a very talented young man.
Wow now that was painful.
Just thought I should let you know that I rewarded you with three blog awards for Interesting Blog,One Lovely Blog,and I ♥ Your Blog.
that's amazing from a 15 year old boy. i could hardly express myself like that. even today.
this is absolutely AMAZING. annnnd just in time for fathers day...thanks for the comment on my blog! btw, i teach middle school-high school students creative writing as well. crazy. i fell in love with your blog the moment i read it. i hope to keep in contact.
-riv-
Incredible writer. he's a talented kid. he's writing was honest and heartfelt, really felt like i could relate even though I'm a girl.
i feel inspired. Tank him for me
I'm lovin this! It speaks THE TRUTH!! It's the sad story that many lil boys encounter. He really is gifted!
Post a Comment