random ish: it's nothing but words...

* i love this picture. doesn't it look cool? work it mama. hahaha.

* volleyball has officially started, and i'm drained already. between camp and practice and pictures and parents and physicals, i can't breathe. and OH LORD the girls text me like it's going out of style. whew. i still love them though. lol.

* i did a photoshoot with my friend (shout out to Art!) the other day... and i pretty much impressed myself! lol. he's in school in wisconsin and was only here for a week but needed some shots for his portfolio (can you imagine the really skinny guy in HS growing into this buff model? hilarious.) so i volunteered cause hey, i need some shots for my portfolio too. so far i've officially done three great photoshoots. i'm awesome. friends that let you take pictures of them are awesomer. lol.

* i'm very emotionally drained. i need a V8, like something serious. lol.

* i have finally found the perfect combination of products that my hair is in love with. and that makes me happy. :=) V05 tea therapy conditioner = heaven sent.

* i think i'm in need of a blog break. seems to be spreading throughout the blogosphere. even though i did kind of take one last week with my one post (it was a friggin awesome post though, wasn't it? i am in love with that mind spill. so soft and imperfect. who wouldn't want that kind of love?), but still, i feel the need coming on. it's all just too much to keep up with right now. plus ...

* there is something inside me that is drawn to troubled souls. no, seriously. i think it's my unexplainable need to help. and learn. i like to understand. i like to talk to them and experience the inner workings of their minds. it's pretty remarkable how people can experience such horrors and still come out a beautiful person on the other end. i think that's why my characters all have some internal conflict, i like uncovering the damages and mending them. lol.

* my father recently taught me how to make a perfect steak. no matter how you like it-- medium rare, rare, well-done, medium well--i can do it all! PLUS, i can make a killer greek salad now. thank you daddy-o! i would post the video but umm no. but anyhoo, whooo hooo for Muze gaining you-need-to-wife-me-up points! hahaha.

* i want an iphone. so bad. the new one. so so so bad. my stepmother just got one and it is soooo friggin sweet. and only 200 bucks. i NEED it in my life. and yes, she already has my blog saved in her favorites. cause i'm flyy like that. lol. was weird seeing my blog so little though. that phone though, so awesome. i want it. so if anyone feels like being nice... i'm taking donations. lolol.

* so i've decided i'm moving in november or december. after i get my stipend for volleyball i'm just going to pack up and hit the road. wherever the wheels take me is where i'm going. ... the wheels will most likely take me to atlanta. or california. both places have more than a few people i know, and both places have warm weather, most importantly. lol. all i want is to look outside and not see snow on my birthday. february 14th is the date, write it down. lol. so... we'll see. i can't wait. a fresh start is exactly what i need, no question about it.

* "i don't know if i ever loved him, really. i was young but i think now that i was younger than i should have been, for my age. if you see what i mean. anyway, i know i wasn't woman enough to help the man, to give him what he needed."

this is an excerpt from the book 'if beale street could talk', by the great james baldwin. made me think. really made me think. i've met plenty of young women who have experienced waaaay too much. who have had way too 'hard' of a life, and it shows, in their behavior, their language, and their perspectives on life. i worry sometimes that i may be just the opposite. is there such a thing as too innocent? too untainted? i wonder. i've been told i need to experience more. i've been called naive. but what makes one 'woman enough'?

sometimes i think that is the beauty of me. other times i think it is ultimately the reason why my life ends up taking the interesting turns that it does. lol.

* i want a yorkshire terrier. omg they are just the cutest things on the planet. this customer at the bank always brings his in and she's just so little and cute. too bad they cost like $1500... and there's no WAY i'm spending that much on a dog right now, period. lol. one day though... one day.

* i believe that, heaven must be like this
ray of sunshine, kiss upon your skin
just say you love me.... make my day go good.
pot of gold at the, end of the rainbow...

i believe that, love is synonymous
with heaven, such a sensual bliss
the way you touch me, makes this life so good
a reward at the, end of the long road...

can't tell you nothing you ain't already heard...
no matter what i say, it's nothing but words
just let me prove to you what i know is real...
let me express to you the way that i feel...

fairy tales can be, real if you just believe
got my mind made... i don't plan to leave
cause you are meant for me, simple that may be
why be complex, loving you is so easy...

^^ verses (all of them. lol) from my most favoritest song on the planet right now. 'words' by anthony david featuring india arie. touches me. man i love it. love it love it love it. lol. such a supertastic song.

guess that's all.

hope all is fab and flyy!

back down memory lane...

funny how when you're a child life is so carefree, fun, and is basically just one long romp around in the brightly colored cage of 'balls' (chuck e. cheese, people. lol). maaan... childhood is GREAT. and not that i didn't enjoy the awkward teen years or the good ol' college days... but i was channel surfing the other day and E.T. was on. how cool is that? haven't seen that since... wow. i don't think i can remember the last time i watched that.

anyhoo, that got me to thinking on my favorite childhood things. if you're an 80's baby, holla! lol.

candy: ring pops, nerds and now and laters. yummy. are fruit roll ups considered candy? lol.

cereal: peanut butter cap'n crunch all the way, baby. that's actually STILL one of my favorite cereals. only one that has topped it in adulthood ... and that's raisin bran. oh yeah. lol.


toys: glow worm, my kid sister, my little pony, and my roller skates... all day. the cabbage patch dolls were that deal too. i had like 47 of them... whew daddy spoiled me. lol.

song: 'i'm bad' by michael jackson and 'ain't nobody' by chaka khan. and of course as i got older it was all about The Boys and ABC. hahaha. then Immature... wow. i was totally convinced that i would meet Romeo and he'd fall madly in love. lol.

friends: melissa, latanja, and tawanna. the latter two are still two of my bestest friends.

school subjects: math (can you imagine i used to be good at it? what happened along the way i can't tell you. lol) and creative writing. i didn't know i liked to write. i just knew every year that i would win the 'little storytellers' award for the halloween story contest. it was just a given. lol.


clothing: well don't know if this is clothing, but i LOVED my scrunchies. lolololol. i'd put my hair in the most hideous side ponytail thing and then pile at least three or four brightly colored hair scrunchies around it. wow. just wow.

i also had this michael jackson 'beat it' jacket that i loved to death. i don't think i ever took it off from the time i got it until my grandmother got mad at me one day and put it in the attic. i know right? *tear* lol. and of course, my 'thriller' shirt that i still rock to this day. sad, i know.

tv programs: punky brewster (she was flyy... don't hate. lol) the cosby show (of course) power rangers (smh) the care bears, the smurfs, schoolhouse rock, the flintstones, the muppets, and the jetsons. maaaan, saturday was my FAVORITE day. ever.

books: any beverly cleary book. and a little later, the sweet valley high series. lol.

food: NOTHING like my mommy's spaghetti. and daddy's mashed potatoes. nothing.


memory: my mom was in a all-girl band called Lady Deluxe (yes, SO flyy) and they would perform all around the city (mom on keyboard) and sing all these old songs. some of my favorite memories are being in the drummer's basement (think her name was sheila) and jammin' next to my mom. that is also the reason why 'ain't nobody' by chaka khan is one of my fav all-time songs. they used to play that and JAM. seriously.

fishing with my dad, even though i HATED worms, fish, and the cold water... it was still fun.


what are some of your favorite childhood things?

hope all is fab and flyy. *smiles*

the return of random ish ...

* so i'm officially back to being a curly q head. lol. i rocked the straight, flat-ironed look for about a month and a half ... but it was time to go back to being Natural Muze. ahhh ... freedom. lol. wash, shake, and go. gotta love it.

* i know i'm like years late, but how about i am obsessed with The Wire now? little brother has all the seasons on dvd and i've been watching them for the last three days or so. it's like crack i tell you! and mm mm mm! all i have to say is Idris. Elba. whew. lord. i swear i'd give that man babies. lol. so gangsta. i love it.

* i've been a bad blogger as of late. haven't really had a chance to go blog browsing and read some of my favorite people ... so i apologize for the lack of comments. mind has been elsewhere. mostly on my writing. trying to get 'Operation Quit That Dang Bank Job and Just Write' off the ground. lol. -sidebar- if anyone has a writing gig that they think i would be interested in ... holla! lol.

* i love my little brother. i swear i do. how about he just got this GINORMOUS tattoo in memory of my late angel (daughter) Briyanna. see how big it is? wowza. he's insane. lol. it's an angel holding a baby... and it says her name, birth, and death date. and now i feel all sorts of pressure to get one. will NEVER have one that big though, no way.

* i was supposed to go on a month-long exodus around the country this summer, but that plan was backed up and jacked up by recent events in my life. i can't spend any money now because i'm moving into a house with two of my bestest friends. ...and i have to get a car. boooo to spending money. yay to having my own ish! whew.

* i went to see The Incredible Hulk on father's day. daddy treated though, so i can't say i took him per se, lol, but still ... we had fun. it was really good! and that is sooooo not anything i would EVER go to the movies and see, but i was very impressed. favorite part: dude (who would become Abomination later on) is fighting with the Hulk. Hulk is pissed. lol. dude says, "That all you got?" ... and Hulk proceeds to kick the DOG ISH out of him. hurls him all the way across the field and into a tree. i don't think i've laughed that hard in a LONG while. lol.

* sad face :-( at me missing Obama when he came monday. i had to work, and i had full intentions on going ... but when i got off and called a friend who was down there, she said it was already PACKED and had been for quite a while. i think she got pics though ... so we will see. and can i just say i heart Michelle Obama? she is truly the definition of a strong, intelligent, supportive black woman. no wonder Barack made it this far. lol.

* i might catch flack for this, but i think Jay-Z and Beyonce are the cutest couple ever. seriously. i was watching a show on them the other day (can you imagine i spent a whole hour in 'crazy in love' land? blame it on little sister #1. lol) and they look like they are so in love. with some couples you can just tell it's a farce. but they seem real. age difference doesn't matter, looks don't matter (at least not to B) and together they are worth almost 1 billion dollars. whew. got to love it. i actually developed a little Jay crush while i was watching it, which if you know me ... is shocking. lol. i like his swagger. he's very cool. i can see why B would want him. i can see it.

* i just read somewhere that honesty is the sexiest gift a man can give a woman. i partly agree. even more sexy is when a man who appears to be one way to the world (hard, mean, cold, thuggish, gangster, cruel) is a completely different person when it comes to the woman he loves. sigh. i love it. feels like you have a secret part of them that no one else has. my friend said i have a twisted way of thinking. lol. whatever. i think that's hot. lol.

* i love the summertime. i'm all bronzed and beautiful. yay! can i just say thank you to the sun? lol.

* i went to the Festival of the Arts the other day and got THE most gorgeous crocheted earrings ever. there is a whole post coming up on that though, i took far too many interesting pictures not to. i also got some emu-oil lotion called Dragon's Blood. yes, Dragon's Blood. it actually smells really good and made me really soft. once you get over the name, you're good. lol.

* i HATE rumors. especially false rumors. if you want to know something about me, ask me. i will give you an honest answer. other than that, keep my name out of your fiction. please.


welp, there's more (of course) but i will not bore you all with the tragic details of my life any further. so ... hope all is fab and flyy! *smiles*

obama is coming to detroit monday!!!

whooo hoooo!

can't wait to hear this man in person.

father's day post coming tomorrow.

the pics alone will make it worth it.

ha!

i've been DYING laughing at some of the oldie but goody pics i've come across.

whew. i've got a cramp.

lmao.

mind spilling

not much to speak on today. so i'll just mind spill ...

i've been feeling a little down lately. but i am positive my happiness will be greatly increasing in the next few weeks and months. i pray.

...it betta get betta. whew.

my wtf moment of the week...

my face. well rather the skin on my face. has been pissing me off. breaking out. i'm 26 years old. what the hell. ugh. ah well. it will go away. just makes me angry. that's how i KNOW i've been stressing. booooo.

on the up side, little sister #1 and i are going to see kanye TOMORROW. wooooo hoooo!!! operation 'seduce kanye' is still on. lol.

cool story ...

so my mom and little sister #1 called me on speaker phone monday. little sis was screaming with glee in the background.

my mom asked, "are you sitting down?"

i said "no, why?"

mom: "sit down!!"

me: "why?"

mom: "cause i just won you kanye west tickets!!"

me: "huh? don't play with my heart. seriously. that is just cruel."

-sidebar- when i said i was going to the kanye concert, i was purchasing them that day. thing is, only seats i was willing to pay for were waaay far. the ones closer to the stage (but still very very far away) were unreasonably priced, so i was a little depressed that i'd have a nosebleed during the concert.

-resume-

little sis#1: "noooo! she is serious!! *screams* i can't wait!!! ohmygod what are you going to wear?? this is gonna be so much fun!!!"

me: "so ya'll are serious? like for real?"

mom: "yes! they asked on the radio why you deserved to go to the concert and i told them and i won! they're really good seats too!!"

me: *screams like a little kid* "you are sooo the best mom ever in life. ever."


so yeah, i'm going. and i won't have a nosebleed. yay. now to find a way to sneak my camera in. there's no way i'm not getting some pics. me thinks i will hide it with my 'goodies'. lol. they try to check there and i'll scream harassment. ha!

and yesterday, my mom informed me that a friend of a friend just gave her floor seats to the celtics/pistons game on saturday. and i'm going to that also. yay.

how cool am i?

random...

have you ever watched a real life love story unfold? it's a pretty awesome thing to witness.

that random ish...

* my mind is so cluttered today. i know right? it's only 10:15 in the morning. you can tell how my day is going to be. lol.

* i've had like the same seven songs in my head for the last week or so, so if i have a lot of music links, that is why.

* this belly ring is kinda cool. sexy time baby! lol. but it's oozing some kind of liquid that is turning to crust that i have to wipe off every couple of hours. now THAT is unsexy. apparently that means it's healing though. still, gross.

* my little brother's girlfriend got her's done the other day. she cried. ha! i don't feel like such a punk anymore.

* i got my stimulus check like waaay earlier than everyone else. ha! i didn't stimulate anything though. just put it in the savings. *planning my getaway slowly* lol.

* having no car sucks. i mean really sucks. like sucks fat sweaty arsecrack. seriously.

* if you loaned your friend some super sexy stilettos and she had sex in them, would you be mad?

* 'touch my body' by mariah carey is my JAM. but um, how hilarious is it that she has to warn this person not to put her on youtube? are you seriously effing with someone that would put your tape on youtube? wow. lol.

* and i can't believe she married nick cannon. like, married. and got tats. like, big tats. with each other's name. on one hand it sounds so crazy. on the other it is soooo romantic. to be swept up in romance and love is one of the greatest feelings. high fives to nick for snagging him a sugar mama. ha!

* so i don't know if i told this, but i'm going to the kanye concert!!! whooooo hoooo! can't wait can't wait can't wait. i mean, he IS single now. the plan is to get backstage and seduce him with my flyyness so that he immediately drops to his knees and says "Muze, PLEASE marry me...now!" ha! i'd so do it. ...if i was also single. lol. (heyyy bf. you know i'm just playing...right? lol)

* volleyball season is starting soon. can't wait. i miss my girls. this will be my fourth year and all my best girls are now seniors looking forward to college. it will be a bittersweet year for sure. but we WILL kick some major arse this year. yay coach Muze! lol.


* it's weird that a few of my girls ^^ are on facebook and are my friends. same with myspace. i can't really say things that i may be feeling cause they will see. have to be an example. couldn't turn down their friend requests, you know? lol. lets me monitor them and fuss them out when i see them talking innappropriately though. they know i'm watching now. so they change that f*ck to an 'eff'. lol. it's hilarious. betta had.

* i kinda miss my sister being on the team. ahh well. good times.

* my new nickname to a few of my friends is 'rock star'. i think it's cute. kinda. i have waaay to many nicknames now though. ha. speaking of rock star, the song by the very same name by nickelback is like one of my favorites ever. 'heyyy heeyyy i wanna be a rock star!' lol.

i wanna be great like elvis, without the tassles
hire eight bodyguards that love to beat up assholes
sign a couple autographs so i can eat my meals for free...

* i miss the 'i'm your baby tonight' whitney. i've been jamming to that for the last week or so.

*go pistons!!!! whoooo hoooo! we soooo rock. i didn't even realize this is the sixth year in a row that we will be in the eastern conference finals. work it out. bf is beyond ecstatic. lol.

* 'okay' by nivea always reminds me of my friends. we used to listen to it before hitting the club. getting our snooty girl head bob on. (you'd have to see it.) 'feelin good, feeling great. i look good... don't hate.' the first guy that raps from the youngbloodz has such a cute southern accent. i like southern accents. so cute. i have a friend that is sooo country. and he's from florida so i don't understand how his voice is THAT country. lol. always saying "yeah i looked at your blo-ug today.." hilarious. blo-ug? like blouse with a g. it's blog homie. like clog. lol.

* why is 'sexy, can i?' every dude's new pick up line? sooo annoying. um, NO you can't.

*i'm so sad that i had to give four pairs of brand new shoes away. apparently my foot has grown since last year and so when i bought four new pairs of shoes from 6pm.com (my new obsession) they ALL were too small. dangit. i gave them to the little sisters, mom, and my brother's gf though. so that was my good for the week. little sister #1 wore hers to a dance at michigan state. looked absolutely FABULOUS. i taught her well. lol.


well that's it. hope all is fab and flyy.

peaces.

guess i'm not too old after all.

since i was around seventeen or eighteen, my friends have been trying to get me to do it.

i'd laugh, promise i would with the next bold friend that went, and then i'd be 'busy' when the day finally came. or i'd be sick. or hanging with my boyfriend, or something that would prevent me from having to keep my word.

i was scared.

and i know it was only a five second discomfort at most, but i still wasn't with it. when i reached age 21, again, my friends, although college friends this time, tried to get me to go through with it.

never happened. i was so chicken it wasn't even funny.

and i've been perfectly okay with never having that experience. ever. never needed to put on a swimsuit or some little top and reveal it for the world to see. never had that urge. always thought it was cute, but that's as far as my admiration went. period.

all that changed yesterday.

on a whim, little sister number 1 called me, no actually sent me a text, that said 'let's go get our belly buttons pierced today!'

i thought it was a joke. told her maybe tomorrow or thursday. her reply was 'noooo. today!'

and the rest is history folks.



26 and my first time getting my navel pierced. the things a big sister will do, i tell you. especially considering that her's didn't hurt in the slightest and mine, with the thick skin above my navel, almost killed me. lol.



seriously. when she was piercing my sister, the needle slid through, no problem. mine however, almost got stuck and she had to try several times to get it through the top layer of my skin. i of course, knew this, which is one of the reasons i have never gotten it done.



of course, bf captured the whole experience on camera. we're such dorks. i was video taping and he was snapping pics with his professional lens. you'd have thought beyonce was making an appearance at Ink Addiction. lol.





but ahh well. it's here. it's cute. bf loves it, and i feel 18 again. lol.







hope all is fab and flyy.

thoughts on a saturday night ...

-i was on da vinci's blog earlier and he mentioned one of my favorite songs (which is why he's so cool...good taste. lol). sunday morning by maroon 5.

Sunday morning rain is falling
Steal some covers share some skin
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mold that I am in
But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road get up and go if I knew
That someday it would bring me back to you
That someday it would bring me back to you

maaan. can't stop playing it. you should love it too. lol.

maroon 5 is the ishnit.

-i'm watching the kat williams comedy special CRACKING up.

he is a FOOL.

'every day i'm hustlin...'

"you're muthaf*ckin wind disrespected the sh*t outta my jacket."

bwaaaahaaa. same is true for michigan.

-for some reason i feel so unsettled in my spirit. i think i need to move. michigan has worn out it's welcome in my heart.

-i miss the warmth of atlanta and i miss my friends. though i don't think i would move there again.

-my little sisters are home from college. i friggin missed them! like something serious! we went up to michigan state yesterday to pick one of them up and she's all grown up and so pretty and ... let me stop bragging. lol.

my sisters do rock though. made me smile on an otherwise ishty day yesterday.

-i've been on karrie b's blog for the last hour clicking all the links in her 100th post dedication. JAMMING. my slow self thought those were links to those people's blogs. lol.

thanks karrie for my 'supastar' by the way. feel so special. *smiles*

-i should be out somewhere. saturday evening and i'm home like an old lady, reading blogs and watching kat williams with bf sleeping beside me. we're such an old couple. *sigh*

*waves as the days of being fun and young leave out the door*

-i'm cranky. i shouldn't be blogging tonight.

and i'm rarely cranky. booo to this. such an 'eff it' day today.

-today and yesterday were soooo humid. damn you michigan. i have to ponytail it up now. sucks i know.

i think i'm just gonna wash it and wear it curly until the 17th... when my girlfriend is having a big birthday bash.

-i hate my job. well maybe not HATE, but strongly dislike. and the coworkers...minus like 2 or 3 of them.

such fakeness going on. it's terrible.

-i watched 'why did i get married today' and it has me sooooo not wanting to deal with the drama of nuptials. whew. i know, i know, everyone's thinking "huh?" "MUZE is saying this?"

yeah i am. today. tomorrow i'll be saying something totally different though, so it's cool. lol.

that lamann rucker though, whew. niiiiiice.

-why is customer by raheem devaughn like my JAM these days. i've been loving him for forever, but this song just makes you wanna do some things. lol.

and I'm the catch of the day (ay ay ay ay ay)
Your dessert, your meal, your drink (ay ay ay ay ay)
You can find it all in me
I'll fill you up for free
If your heart is hungry
You can place your order here with me


Let me serve you up
Let me let me serve you up
See, you can have it your way
You're the costumer
If you want me supersized with some loving on the side
Just ask for what you want cause your the costumer

well alright then, raheem. lol.


anyhoo... muze, out.

hope all is flyy and fabulous. hopefully i'll be soon. *half smiles*

random ish... the weekend edition

hey people!

sorry i haven't posted this week. for anyone who cares, those evil people at that evil bank actually made me WORK. can you believe it?

like, monday AND tuesday. early too.

i know, i was pissed too.

lol.


so let me first say that i did the march of dimes walk this past sunday and i want to say THANK YOU again to all of you all who donated, whether online or by mail.

love you guys! i do.

so ... friday after work bf's mom surprised us with a free room at motorcity casino. 'twas sooo nice. bf was chillaxing. lol.


basically that's all we did. relax.


saturday...

i went and got my hair straightened!! whooo hoooo!



i was nervous, but tianni hooked me up, for real. it was bouncy and light and STRAIGHT.

this will only be a once in a while thing, but i was happy for the change.



and ya'll know i had to take an 'official' straight hair pic. even though i don't really like this one. bf says we have to do a photo shoot since i just bought an insane amount of dresses and shoes for the summer.


so yeah, that was saturday. came home from the hotel, relaxed, went and got my hair straightened. and i TOTALLY forgot how black beauty shops are. my appointment was at five...i got there at five.

she didn't get to me until SEVEN-THIRTY. ooooh! lol. i was waiting and waiting... left to get something to eat, and waited some more. got out around nine-thirty-ish. whew.

...but she did a great job, so i'll be back. lol.

Sunday ...

march of dimes!

we woke up insanely early because we had to be downtown by 8:30. packed the water and snacks (candy) and put on jackets, because unlike last year, it was a little chilly outside.

when we got there, there were lots of people there.



we met up with my brother, his girlfriend, and my mom. all sweethearts for walking the five miles with me and bf this year.


march for babies from shanae b on Vimeo.
yay at me getting the videos to work.


my brother got interviewed channel 2 news on why it was important for him to walk. he did great!


i was loving my smart water. felt more intelligent by the sip. lol. the curls were gone when i wrapped my hair ... but i was still loving it.


the mod squad. lol @ my mom doing whatever she's doing. lol.


of course we had to stop on the river walk and take pics lol.


cheese!


work it mama. LOL.


lol @ my goofy little brother trying to get muscles.


finally done! whew!


awww.



they didn't want the party to end...so they entertained us with a step show after we finished. lol.


so then...


i went home and changed cause it had warmed up.


hair held up pretty good for just having walked five miles. lol.

after i decided to relax for the evening...i got a call to come over to the bestest's for a little impromptu gathering for her 25th bday.

she had to fly out (she's a flight attendant) on her bday and was sad we couldn't have a party that i had taken the pics for in a previous post, so we just called up some friends and had a grand ole time at her house.

it was fun until the men showed up. lol. we took turns (play) stripping on her big table and talked about such unladylike things. lol.

i learned a few new moves too... watch out now! lol.

i tried to upload the videos of us dancing... but i think it's too big. so ah well. hilarity i tell you. lol. this one is when bestest got home. still had the uniform on. ha! she's gonna kill me. lol. sorry it's so dark ...we only had like one light on in there.


bday party from shanae b on Vimeo.


the birthday girl cozying up to her favorite friend. lol.


we tried to get all the ladies to come take a pic...but people wanted to be elsewhere in the house during photo session time. so they got left out. lol.


buy you a draaannnk...

i was frontin though. mine was pepsi. lol.


sisters... awww.


don't you love my tan? i swear i love the sun. yay!


beauts


all the fellas were representing ... lol.


can't forget the cake.


i know what the wish was ...


don't ask who i was looking at... cause i don't know. lol.

...and now i'm off to go spend the stimulus check that was so promptly deposited into my account yesterday.

*smiles*

hope all is flyy and fabulous.

i've been tagged!

okay so don tagged me the other day, and since i have nothing to blog about today, i will bore you all with six things about me that are unknown to bloggers.

so, drum roll please...


1. i used to be the lead singer in a cheesy, multi-racial girl group. we performed all over detroit and chicago and actually were working on a deal from epic, but i quit because i'm more neo-soul-ish, lol, and they were trying to make us into a whole squad of 'exotic' britney spears. booo to that. the thirty or so songs i wrote will be on an album of mine ... one day. lol.

2. i've dated both a professional basketball player and a professional football player. like, keys to the Range dated. well, the football player, who still tries to contact me through my grandmother (he LOVED my grammy) to this day. i had very low expectations ... it was just the novelty of it i guess. the bball player got angry after a month and still no 'relations'. lol. even though i told him it wasn't going to be like that waaay before he even got my number. the football player was and is a sweetheart though.

3. i am going on a month- long road trip this summer to see america and get some inspiration for my writings. two of those weeks i will be by myself. so excited!!

4. i have a soundtrack playing in my head at all times. people say when i walk i walk like i'm on the runway. lol. i guess that's why. ha.

5. i drink about 70-80oz of water each day. keeps the skin smoooooth. lol.

6. i run 2-3 miles almost every day, either outside or on the treadmill.

bonus!

7. i used to have about 52 hats. once i became natural though, i couldn't wear them. so i recently gave about 43 of them away. *sadness*


...yeah, i'm a quirky dorky health nut. lol.


i'm not going to tag anyone. if you do this one, drop a comment and let me know and i'll come learn about you.

hope all is flyy and fabulous.
*smiles*

once upon a vanilla bean ...

vanilla is one of my favorite flavors. possibly the world's best flavor in my opinion.

seriously.

vanilla ice cream? absolutely love it.

vanilla candles, shakes, cookies, soy milk, icing, candy. i will even only eat the white chocolate cookies n' cream hershey's bar.

i love it that much.


... but i've never been with a vanilla bean. outside of the flyy world they are known as white men.

seems like i'd like them too, right?

i mean, i've been on dates. but only with one guy. in high school. he was hott though, whew.

so hott that all the white chicks were mad at him for going out with me. ha!


well, i had my vanilla bean blast from the past about a month or so ago.

he strolled into my job casually, tousled hair covered by a U of M cap, black t-shirt displaying the superman logo, and jeans, looking like any other 20-something vanilla bean local. i smiled and greeted him before i realized who he was.

"oh my god. you work here?" he was excited.

"brian. wow. how have you been?" i smiled harder. up close, he was just as beautiful as he was during high school.

his smile was wide. "i've been good! you look. wow. you look great. i can't believe you work here. thought you'd be in hollywood somewhere by now."

"ha. i wish. i see you still like superman." i responded, remembering the superman emblem he had on his car when we were younger. can't remember the kind of car it was, but i remember that emblem he was so proud of.

he was only in the bank because his mother had 'forced' him to get up and come make a deposit for her. now he was pretty happy he came though.


seeing him made me wonder. what if i would have taken him seriously when he asked me to be his girlfriend? what if i had answered the many calls he made after i told him i'd think about it? would we have stayed together? would we have been the cute, open-minded interracial couple and had little choconilla babies? would i have liked him as much as i like vanilla-anything else?

the thought alone is mind-boggling to me.

i have to admit, one side of me was curious. the other side however, knows that the only thing on this planet more beautiful than a black man, is a black woman.

"are you single? i am. and i'd love to take you out to dinner." he said, pulling out his nifty i-phone. i'm assuming to input my number.

i told him about my book, and of course about my boyfriend. he was clearly disappointed, but i made him promise to buy my book when it comes out. it was really amusing to know that he still would like me after all this time.

guess i thought it was just a phase.


...funny thing is, my coworker knows him as well. she informed me the other day that according to myspace, he is newly dating a very pretty black girl.


... i like to think i was the inspiration.

ha.


-have you or would you ever date interracially? more specifically, a vanilla bean or bean-ette?


- the song you're hearing is one of the most hilarious songs i think i've ever heard. his name is stephen lynch. a comedic musician that i saw one night on comedy central and just had to download this song. he's officially the coolest vanilla bean for writing this song. lol. no offense to all the vanilla ice cream ladies ...

I only like black girls and brown girls, the café au lait
Caramel girls, and mocha girls just blow me away
If your a nubian, I want you to-be in every fantasy
But if you're a whitey, say nighty-nighty, you're just not the girl for me ...


he seriously cracks me up. all his songs are pretty hilarious.

isn't it funny how vanilla beans are black? lol.


hope everyone is flyy and fabulous!

the random ish... a pictorial review.

* i'm so proud of myself, i think this might be the first week that i've blogged this much in a week since i started this blog. wow.

* i was panicking last month cause my hair was coming out when i washed it. so i put these twists in to not deal with it. had them in for like a month...MAJOR accomplishment for me.


my friend said it was probably just shedding from the twists, but this seems like a lot of hair, doesn't it?


* after crying for ten minutes, i washed my hair. lol. bf is always coming in snapping pics when i'm in mid hair-wash. geesh, it is amazing how many pictures he must have of me. i'm an old pro now though, i'm always ready.

me pretending to be sexy. lol.


* must say though, turned out to be a pretty good hair day. excuse the blank stare. lol. just a pic for my hair journal.




* my godson just turned two. isn't it amazing how fast babies grow? seems like yesterday he was this little.


now he's all big and stuff.


...and thinks he is a grown man. LOL.


must be nice to be a kid.


* speaking of which...i've decided him and my goddaughter are the cutest little people ever.



* i really really love Day 26's single Got Me Going (yes, i watch making the band). i think diddy finally did something right. lol.



* my baby is gone. Rubi is gone forever! i'm so sad. i had to give her to the junk yard. she got me through many a mile and away from many a crime scene though. poor out a little oil for the lost homie. lol. i love you Rubi! ....i also love the $150 i got for you too...


* my father is at it again. pressuring me to have some babies and propel him into grandfather-hood.

ion see no rings on these fingers...

i told him he will have better luck with the little sister #2. lol. after all, SHE is the engaged one. but she's 18 and i WILL kill her...so forget that plan. lol. but aren't they cute?


* my other mini-me, little sister #1, is getting so grown. thinking about pledging delta next year. can't believe they are getting so old. that means I'M getting old, and i don't like it! lol. maan what happened to the little girl that used to 'do' my hair when i was sleep? have me waking up looking like whodunnit and whatfo. lol



* i don't know WHAT is going on with my little brother,


but i'm gonna have to agree with don and say that a woman, or rather his lust for THIS woman, is definitely his downfall right now. i mean, she's cute, but that's it. no motivation, no aspiration besides being a club 'promoter' [read: girl in booty shorts and tank top that hands out fliers] for all these trifling clubs in detroit.



* a book on natural black women is coming out, and i was contacted and asked to be interviewed for it, which i am more than thrilled to do. the only thing is, i'm trying to establish my writing career...and they want to use two pictures. one is fine...but one is of me in a bathing suit that bf took on our anniversary. i just don't know about that. i think it will take away from me being taken serious as a writer. i'm really about to say no and not do it because they are insisting on using this photo. i mean, it's fine for a blog...but i don't know about an interview advertising my writing. hmmm.

*if you don't see the photo, it's because i have already taken it down.*


* i would never get a perm again, but sometimes i miss having straight hair...can't wear my hats as much.



* this is hilarious.


* there is a gas station in detroit that is selling laptops for $100. maan i wish i had taken a picture of that dang sign. hilarity. i'm gonna go in there and ask to see one. i just have to see it. lol.


* isn't my mommy purty? thank goodness i inherited her legs. how i'm gonna follow that?



*so a while ago, i had bf's camera and took pictures of him, my brother, and little sister #1's boyfriend playing basketball at a local park. i took pics of the other guys that were there too, and got their facebook information so i could send them to them. well, i lost the paper that had all their information. so, if any of these is you...here's your pics. lol. contact me for the rest of them.







okay, i'm done. hope everyone is fabulous and flyy. *smiles*


--wait! i forgot. how cool is this picture?

...know i had to add some kanye to the mix. LOL.


have a good weekend everyone.

muze in the hot seat!

okay, so i've seen a couple other bloggers do it, and it looks like fun. i certainly had fun prying...lol.

so, here's your chance to get to know Muze.

ask me anything. yep, anything you want to know.

i'll answer honestly, i promise.




i thought maybe if i posted some sunny day pictures, i'd feel better about all this dang snow and coldness. whew i need a vaca. lol.

why? because i can ...

dedicated to the lovely ladies in the why thread on nappturality.com. *smiles* it's pretty simple. just start every sentence with the word why.